2008年1月30日星期三

The Only and Last Girl That I Love...

This thing was happen on this year 2008.. Tat day... I had found out tat the girl tat i love had fall in love with my fren... I think tat all of u had know who tat lucky girls... Till today i still can't forget her even though i keep telling myself tat i need and should forget her...
But... every time i see her or read the sms tat she send to me... All the memory between me and her keep rushing back into my mind....

I still rmb wat we two hav say when i greed her "xin fu" and happy forever wit her choose boy friend... Tat day i really so sad and unhappy when i knew tat she had fall in love wit my best fren... The reason tat make me like tis was... Why can't she tell to me by herself??? Why was her fren telling tis thing to me but not her...

At tat moment... i really so sad till wanna to cry out liao... i sending her my greed and bless so tat she will happy forever... But when i saw her reply msg.. i really donno how to say out my feeling... she asking me wheather i was unhappy or not when knew tat she had fall in love...
wat can i say... telling her tat i'm so so so unhappy and wanna her stay wit me... So i just tell her tat i'm not unhappy... and i just wanna to greed her and i trust tat her choice is the best for her...
I ask her to promiss me tat she will happy forever... But It really make my blood boiling till maximum.... She ask back me why i say like tis... Isn't the girl tat i love was Lo Yuan ????
Walau... Wat was her thinking about... I mer scolding her back... I tell her... If I'm not love her why i doing those thing to her and care her and scare her get hurt and protect her...
Why i nd do those thing to her if i'm not loving her...

However... tis only continue for few min only... She msg had softing back my feeling and my heart... Wat i can say tat is... I'm can't angry about her... I really care her and scare her get hurt... Wat i can do... She already be my best fren gf... Should i continue rushing her or give out.... At tat moment... I really cry out liao... I had cry out all my feelimg and My tear keep rowing down onto my handphone till i can't read the text tat i had write.....

Wat can i do.... Wat should i do...

Till today... I just keep being very very happy in front of her even i saw her dating at outside...
Now the last thing tat i can do for her is protect her without knowing by her... And being a happy person in front of her...

Sometimes... I thinking my own at the mid nite... Should i start rushing a new girls... So tat i can more eassier to fogot her... The answer tat i find out really suprise me... I found out tat i can't got feel with other girls... She still can controlling my heart and brain and feeling... I think tat she might the only and last girls tat can make me got feeling and loving...

Em... even i say like tat... But all thing nd to see got "yuan fen" or not lah... Make hav another girl can make me got energy to fall in love again... hahah.... Hope will be like tat la...

Any way... Thank for reading my blogger lol... If got spelling misstake.... Sry o... I'm not so good in english gammer... Hope all of you can foung ur true love and hope me also can found....